This blog is of no importance to anyone who follows it but I can't sleep so I'm going to write.
I was thinking tonight about how thankful I am to have Kevin. (This is why some of you can stop reading.) I have had such bad luck with men. My first kiss didn't happen until I was almost 16 and the next week the guy ignored me at school and then dated one of my best friends. He was later charged with sexual assault by one of my other friends. My first real boyfriend was a drunk college drop out who worked at Lewis full time and cheated on me. Another guy, who I wasn't dating, got me to kiss him and then got back together with his ex-girlfriend less than four days later. I'm the kind of person who puts my whole heart into everything so for these guys, and others who have not been mentioned, to screw me over I was hurt. At the end of last year I was ready to give up on men altogether because none of them seemed to be able to care about me. And then Kevin came along. He was nice and sweet. He cared and is still caring. We can be having the most random conversations and still be having fun. I love him so much and I wish I could show him how much he truly means to me. I can't imagine life without him:)
Well I guess that's it since I'm tired again.
Later
Ash
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
It's been awhile...
It has been a very long time since I've blogged. This summer I really used it to tell my friends whats on my mind. Now that I'm living in Vermillion, I can just tell them. This is what is happening so far.
I totally predicted the fact that my group of friends would need some transitional time for me and Kevin but I didn't think it would be that bad. The thing that pissed me off was that I felt as though everything I did was being looked at again. I spent so many years having to dress perfectly and say the right thing and be the perfect student and the best kid in sunday school and I hated every second of it. If I did anything wrong it was brought up in my dad's staff meeting for the week. I felt like Kevin and I couldn't do anything right. Thankfully I think we have gotten through the hard parts and I understand their side of the situation. (For those of you involved I'm sorry for the mess I caused.)
School is INSANE!!!!! I'm taking 18 credits plus three class for no credit. Plus lessons have studio classes added on so really when you add everything together I'm taking about 25 credits this semester. The one class I can't stand in Para. For this class I have to decide whether or not I really want to become a teacher by doing fluff work and 30 hours of observation time that we have to do on our own and be in class every friday at noon. (aka no lunch for me on mondays wednesdays and fridays because of foundations of american education, we'll get to my bitching about that class in a minute.) My teacher placed me in SIOUX FALLS. Freaking one hour away when I don't have time to get everything done for the stuff I'm doing in Vermillion. So the plan is that I'm going to take an incomplete in the class and do all of the observations over Christmas break. Merry Christmas to me. Foundations of American Education in my second worst class. To sum up what we have learned is being a teacher sucks because you have to deal with kids and you could get sued. TET is the only ed class that I kinda like. I say kinda because we are going through how to use a computer in teaching. So I go on facebook for an hour and then go see Kevin for breakfast.
I thought Theory was going to be my favorite class again but I was VERY wrong. We had our first test this past monday and I got the worst grade I have every gotten in my entire life. Less than 50% on something I consider myself good at. Wyatt and I would compete for the best grade in the class last year. I don't know what happened. I thought I was doing really well on the test but apparently I had everything wrong. Though I did get the hardest chord that we had to spell out right. Which makes absolutely no sense to me. After getting my test back on Wednesday I spent twenty minutes crying in Dr. Yarbrough's office and begging him for a second chance. He told me that I had to come in for an hour private tutoring class. Then he told the entire class today that we would have a make-up test next week. I almost started crying again I was so happy! Things are starting to look up for that class
Diction is by for the hardest class I have this semester. You have to find the correct pronunciation of words. We use IPA which is really cool but also very subjective because everyone pronounces words differently. I've studied more for this class than anything else in my life.
The main problem for me this year is my stress level. Thank God I have Kevin. He keeps everything in prospective for me. I love him so much!!! I don't know how I ever could have possibly live without him. Whenever I'm with him I feel relaxed. Like there isn't anything else I need to worry about or plan or write, I can just be his girlfriend. I have never felt this way about anyone. I just love him:)
and now I'm gushing sorry
That's about it for right now..
Later
I totally predicted the fact that my group of friends would need some transitional time for me and Kevin but I didn't think it would be that bad. The thing that pissed me off was that I felt as though everything I did was being looked at again. I spent so many years having to dress perfectly and say the right thing and be the perfect student and the best kid in sunday school and I hated every second of it. If I did anything wrong it was brought up in my dad's staff meeting for the week. I felt like Kevin and I couldn't do anything right. Thankfully I think we have gotten through the hard parts and I understand their side of the situation. (For those of you involved I'm sorry for the mess I caused.)
School is INSANE!!!!! I'm taking 18 credits plus three class for no credit. Plus lessons have studio classes added on so really when you add everything together I'm taking about 25 credits this semester. The one class I can't stand in Para. For this class I have to decide whether or not I really want to become a teacher by doing fluff work and 30 hours of observation time that we have to do on our own and be in class every friday at noon. (aka no lunch for me on mondays wednesdays and fridays because of foundations of american education, we'll get to my bitching about that class in a minute.) My teacher placed me in SIOUX FALLS. Freaking one hour away when I don't have time to get everything done for the stuff I'm doing in Vermillion. So the plan is that I'm going to take an incomplete in the class and do all of the observations over Christmas break. Merry Christmas to me. Foundations of American Education in my second worst class. To sum up what we have learned is being a teacher sucks because you have to deal with kids and you could get sued. TET is the only ed class that I kinda like. I say kinda because we are going through how to use a computer in teaching. So I go on facebook for an hour and then go see Kevin for breakfast.
I thought Theory was going to be my favorite class again but I was VERY wrong. We had our first test this past monday and I got the worst grade I have every gotten in my entire life. Less than 50% on something I consider myself good at. Wyatt and I would compete for the best grade in the class last year. I don't know what happened. I thought I was doing really well on the test but apparently I had everything wrong. Though I did get the hardest chord that we had to spell out right. Which makes absolutely no sense to me. After getting my test back on Wednesday I spent twenty minutes crying in Dr. Yarbrough's office and begging him for a second chance. He told me that I had to come in for an hour private tutoring class. Then he told the entire class today that we would have a make-up test next week. I almost started crying again I was so happy! Things are starting to look up for that class
Diction is by for the hardest class I have this semester. You have to find the correct pronunciation of words. We use IPA which is really cool but also very subjective because everyone pronounces words differently. I've studied more for this class than anything else in my life.
The main problem for me this year is my stress level. Thank God I have Kevin. He keeps everything in prospective for me. I love him so much!!! I don't know how I ever could have possibly live without him. Whenever I'm with him I feel relaxed. Like there isn't anything else I need to worry about or plan or write, I can just be his girlfriend. I have never felt this way about anyone. I just love him:)
and now I'm gushing sorry
That's about it for right now..
Later
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