so Kevin and I have been dating for just over five months and last night we had our "first" fight. We have had disagreements before, like we can't decide were to eat or who will pay, but never an "I'm mad at you" fight. The worst part is that I totally started it.
We had just gotten back from the Mozart concert in Sioux City and Kevin had to go to work. I decided to go out to Pro's with some friends. We then decided to go back to the house and hang out. I thought it would be funny to text Kevin at work pretending to be smashed. Then he texted Chris asking if I was really drunk. Chris trying to make a joke texted him back saying "yes she's so drunk she's in bed with Tim," which was totally false. I love Kevin. I would NEVER do that to him. I was trying to get Kevin's attention because I like to have conversations with him while he is at work but Kev really doesn't text well. (no offence honey(;) I'll start texting him and then he'll stop. Anyway, unfortunately for Chris, Kevin did not take this text very well. He kinda got mad and ended up calling me wanting to know what was going on. I'm not going to lie, I was pissed. I was mad because he wasn't trusting my judgment.
But I could also see his side. He was probably upset for not being able to spend the night with us and I wasn't helping. I miss him when he's at work. Thankfully we both understood that this whole thing was stupid and we made up when he got home. Though I was kinda glad he had seven hours to think about how stupid he was being. (it's selfish of me but really don't care)
We are good now and it makes me happy.
but Chris is still an ass (; jk.
Other than that things are getting better. I'm still stressed out but Kevin, friends and ultimate Frisbee are helping. Juries are coming and I really want them to stay away. My mom keeps calling me. Sometimes she calls and I'm watching a movie or out with my friends so I plan on calling her back after that but then she will call me again that night and again in the morning. I keep telling her that I'll call her when I get the time which is when I'm not out with my friends and not asleep. She can be very impatient.
Thanksgiving is coming up. I'm super excited because Kevin will be coming with me to my grandma's and I'll get to see all of my work friends at Lewis. Yay!
peace out
Ash
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Wishing you were somehow here again
I don't know who said it first but I think they were right, "God must have needed a drummer." Aaron Hohwieler was my second cousin, and just because I know families can be confusing I will explain.
YOU CAN SKIP! This is my family tree. If anyone is actually reading this and doesn't care just skip this part.
There once were three brothers and three sisters. The brothers names were Jerry, Eldon, and Rollie. The sisters names were Karen, Jan, and the third has never been introduced to me so I have no idea who she is or if she is still alive. I also don't know who is the oldest of the first two in both families but the oldest brother married the oldest sister and the second brother married the second sister. Rollie married a girl named Dianne. They had two daughters named Abby and Tiffany. Abby got married to some guy I can't remember and had their daughter Libby, Abby and what's his name just got divorced. Tiffany also got married but I don't remember what her husbands name is either or the name of her son who is about 3 years old. Jerry and Karen had two children, Chad and Tanya. Chad married Suzette and they had two children, Aaron and Jessie. Tanya married Tim and they have two children, Bailie and Logan. Eldon and Jan got married and had four children. First was Tammy who married John and they have four children, Phil, Maggie, Jack, and Paul. Second was Terri who married Randy and had three children, Ashley(me), Ben, and Taryn. Third was George who married Nancy and they have three children, Andy, Brad, and Jordon. Last was Lyndon who married Shannon and they have four children, Chris, Ryan, Laura, and Luke. The oldest of the grandchildren in my section of the family is Andy and he is 22 while Luke is the youngest at 8. I am the oldest girl of all the cousins and second cousins and for this honor I got a special plate that my great-grandmother left me in her will. Note my enthusiasm. woo-hoo.
BACK ON TRACK. (You can start reading again.)
Aaron, Chris, and I were born within three months of each other. Chris and I went to the same elementary school until his family moved away. Aaron and I went to the same middle school and high school. Since our last names are so similar, we always ended up in line together for the important stuff. In high school, before they changed the system, we had lockers right next to each other. Once my brother and sister came to high school, we would see him and his family at all of the band concerts and marching band competitions. Every semester our school had a list of the people who made the honor roll. If you made it you got to miss class for about an hour for a little ceremony. There was always a speaker who took way too long and was not very interesting. My dad always came to see me or my siblings since each grade had a different day. Sometimes I would get to see Aaron at these events as well as his mom or dad. At graduation, we sat right next to each other and complained about how our mothers were driving us insane with all the open house crap. We were both excited to get out of the house. Ben and Aaron were really close because they were both in SuFuDu. I loved getting to see them perform. Aaron was so good on the snare.
Aaron and Chris were roommates last year and this year at SDSU. They were really close and always got into so much trouble. Last year Chris "fell asleep", more than likely passed out drunk, and Aaron shaved his head. According to my mom and Aunt Tammy, they still hadn't gotten in as much trouble as George, Lyndon, and Chad when they were in school.
I found out about Aaron's death at work. My mom called me but I didn't answer cause I thought she was just calling to check up on me. But then my dad called me right after that so I thought it might be something serious. I answered and my dad was crying. The first thought that popped into my head was I hope its not Grandma. This was worse. When he said Aaron my mind went blank. I thought he was joking. Aaron was my age there was no way he could be dead. I stayed at the bump for two more hours. The whole time I was still in shock. My mind kept saying there's no way this could be true. After my shift got over I called my mom. Once I heard her voice the tears came very quickly. I couldn't even talk I just cried into the phone. Since Kevin didn't get off work for another hour I went over to Kayla and Brianna's place. They were really nice about everything. Kayla had been in band with Aaron and was going through almost the same thing. She got me to calm down. After Kevin took me home, I couldn't stop the tears. He didn't know this but I was up crying for most of the night. I tried not to wake him up. He has been so good to me through this whole thing. I know Chris, Laura, Kayla, and Brianna all told me not to go to class the next day but it was really Kevin who convinced me to go back to Sioux Falls. I didn't want to miss Chamber though. We were getting ready for our concerts. Plus I really didn't want to give some of the people in the group more reason to dislike me. I cried through Abide With Me.
Going home was a good idea. It was nice to be with my family even though we all just sat around crying. My Great-Aunt Karen was the first one to hug me when we got over to the house. She said to me, "He was your age. It's so scary when he was only your age." Chad, Suzette, and Jessie came home later. They had to pick out a grave site. Seeing those three come through the door was horrible. Soon after that my family had to go to the chicken dinner at WHS. All of the band members were waring green ribbons on their uniforms. I decided to stay the night. The next morning I went back over to Chad and Suzette's. It wasn't any better. The worst part was hearing Jerry tell my Great-Aunt Dianne that he wished it could have been him instead. We found out that Aaron's heart must have skipped a beat or gotten out of rhythm. He had an episode seven months ago were his dad had to give him CPR to bring him back. As Aunt Karen said, it was lucky he had seven months without brain damage. This time he wasn't as lucky. The doctors said he had actually died Saturday night but Chris was on a hunting trip with his dad, brother, and our grandpa. Chris didn't find him until Sunday evening around 6:00pm.
There was a prayer service on Wednesday but I had to work. My dad spoke at it. He talked about someone from the bible, who's name I can't remember, who walked with God and one day was no more. The story goes that that one day they went out walking and God said my place is closer would like to go there? Dad said what if God visited Aaron in March and came back for a talk and said you know my place is closer. A lot of people said Dad's speech/sermon was very good. There were 1500 people at the prayer service and 800 at the funeral. The funeral was on Thursday morning. I'm not sure if I would have made it without Kevin. I didn't want to force him to come, but I was so grateful that he did. One part that was kinda funny that shouldn't have been was when my aunt Shannon hugged me and then yelled at me because she was crying so hard and didn't want to meet Kevin that way. I couldn't help but giggle. My mom tried to get me to go see the body but I didn't want to. He was buried in his SuFuDu uniform. So many people kept saying he was never really a suit kind of guy. He always had on his baggy khaki pants with the giant pockets. The service was very nice. The singer was ok. A lot of people liked her but I thought she took the music way to slow and changed some of the melodies in a way that I didn't care for. After everything was done and the family walked out, SuFuDu was outside the church. They played part of their show. Every one of them was crying. Aaron's drum was set up in the middle with a flag in the middle. I cried even harder when I saw that. The SDSU drum line, the Pride, played at the grave site.They were all crying as well. I don't think I'll be able to listen to a snare drum in the same way again. Chris spoke at both the service and the site. His biggest regret is that he wasn't there when it all happened. He said, "I'm sorry you had to die alone." Those words carried so much weight in them. I just wanted to run up and hug him.
One of the things I really need now is for everything to go back to normal. Thanks to all of my friends, this is starting to help but sometimes when I'm all by myself I can't hide from the pain. No matter how you look at things, Aaron's death was tragic. It is going to take some time for this to heal. What I really need is to be with the people who love me. Our little Vermillion family is helping. Hopefully I can get past this soon. Aaron was a great kid. He touched so many lives and will be missed very much. His life was cut way to short.
Rest in Peace Aaron, I miss you very much.
Aaron Hohwieler August 9,1990 to October 25, 2010.
YOU CAN SKIP! This is my family tree. If anyone is actually reading this and doesn't care just skip this part.
There once were three brothers and three sisters. The brothers names were Jerry, Eldon, and Rollie. The sisters names were Karen, Jan, and the third has never been introduced to me so I have no idea who she is or if she is still alive. I also don't know who is the oldest of the first two in both families but the oldest brother married the oldest sister and the second brother married the second sister. Rollie married a girl named Dianne. They had two daughters named Abby and Tiffany. Abby got married to some guy I can't remember and had their daughter Libby, Abby and what's his name just got divorced. Tiffany also got married but I don't remember what her husbands name is either or the name of her son who is about 3 years old. Jerry and Karen had two children, Chad and Tanya. Chad married Suzette and they had two children, Aaron and Jessie. Tanya married Tim and they have two children, Bailie and Logan. Eldon and Jan got married and had four children. First was Tammy who married John and they have four children, Phil, Maggie, Jack, and Paul. Second was Terri who married Randy and had three children, Ashley(me), Ben, and Taryn. Third was George who married Nancy and they have three children, Andy, Brad, and Jordon. Last was Lyndon who married Shannon and they have four children, Chris, Ryan, Laura, and Luke. The oldest of the grandchildren in my section of the family is Andy and he is 22 while Luke is the youngest at 8. I am the oldest girl of all the cousins and second cousins and for this honor I got a special plate that my great-grandmother left me in her will. Note my enthusiasm. woo-hoo.
BACK ON TRACK. (You can start reading again.)
Aaron, Chris, and I were born within three months of each other. Chris and I went to the same elementary school until his family moved away. Aaron and I went to the same middle school and high school. Since our last names are so similar, we always ended up in line together for the important stuff. In high school, before they changed the system, we had lockers right next to each other. Once my brother and sister came to high school, we would see him and his family at all of the band concerts and marching band competitions. Every semester our school had a list of the people who made the honor roll. If you made it you got to miss class for about an hour for a little ceremony. There was always a speaker who took way too long and was not very interesting. My dad always came to see me or my siblings since each grade had a different day. Sometimes I would get to see Aaron at these events as well as his mom or dad. At graduation, we sat right next to each other and complained about how our mothers were driving us insane with all the open house crap. We were both excited to get out of the house. Ben and Aaron were really close because they were both in SuFuDu. I loved getting to see them perform. Aaron was so good on the snare.
Aaron and Chris were roommates last year and this year at SDSU. They were really close and always got into so much trouble. Last year Chris "fell asleep", more than likely passed out drunk, and Aaron shaved his head. According to my mom and Aunt Tammy, they still hadn't gotten in as much trouble as George, Lyndon, and Chad when they were in school.
I found out about Aaron's death at work. My mom called me but I didn't answer cause I thought she was just calling to check up on me. But then my dad called me right after that so I thought it might be something serious. I answered and my dad was crying. The first thought that popped into my head was I hope its not Grandma. This was worse. When he said Aaron my mind went blank. I thought he was joking. Aaron was my age there was no way he could be dead. I stayed at the bump for two more hours. The whole time I was still in shock. My mind kept saying there's no way this could be true. After my shift got over I called my mom. Once I heard her voice the tears came very quickly. I couldn't even talk I just cried into the phone. Since Kevin didn't get off work for another hour I went over to Kayla and Brianna's place. They were really nice about everything. Kayla had been in band with Aaron and was going through almost the same thing. She got me to calm down. After Kevin took me home, I couldn't stop the tears. He didn't know this but I was up crying for most of the night. I tried not to wake him up. He has been so good to me through this whole thing. I know Chris, Laura, Kayla, and Brianna all told me not to go to class the next day but it was really Kevin who convinced me to go back to Sioux Falls. I didn't want to miss Chamber though. We were getting ready for our concerts. Plus I really didn't want to give some of the people in the group more reason to dislike me. I cried through Abide With Me.
Going home was a good idea. It was nice to be with my family even though we all just sat around crying. My Great-Aunt Karen was the first one to hug me when we got over to the house. She said to me, "He was your age. It's so scary when he was only your age." Chad, Suzette, and Jessie came home later. They had to pick out a grave site. Seeing those three come through the door was horrible. Soon after that my family had to go to the chicken dinner at WHS. All of the band members were waring green ribbons on their uniforms. I decided to stay the night. The next morning I went back over to Chad and Suzette's. It wasn't any better. The worst part was hearing Jerry tell my Great-Aunt Dianne that he wished it could have been him instead. We found out that Aaron's heart must have skipped a beat or gotten out of rhythm. He had an episode seven months ago were his dad had to give him CPR to bring him back. As Aunt Karen said, it was lucky he had seven months without brain damage. This time he wasn't as lucky. The doctors said he had actually died Saturday night but Chris was on a hunting trip with his dad, brother, and our grandpa. Chris didn't find him until Sunday evening around 6:00pm.
There was a prayer service on Wednesday but I had to work. My dad spoke at it. He talked about someone from the bible, who's name I can't remember, who walked with God and one day was no more. The story goes that that one day they went out walking and God said my place is closer would like to go there? Dad said what if God visited Aaron in March and came back for a talk and said you know my place is closer. A lot of people said Dad's speech/sermon was very good. There were 1500 people at the prayer service and 800 at the funeral. The funeral was on Thursday morning. I'm not sure if I would have made it without Kevin. I didn't want to force him to come, but I was so grateful that he did. One part that was kinda funny that shouldn't have been was when my aunt Shannon hugged me and then yelled at me because she was crying so hard and didn't want to meet Kevin that way. I couldn't help but giggle. My mom tried to get me to go see the body but I didn't want to. He was buried in his SuFuDu uniform. So many people kept saying he was never really a suit kind of guy. He always had on his baggy khaki pants with the giant pockets. The service was very nice. The singer was ok. A lot of people liked her but I thought she took the music way to slow and changed some of the melodies in a way that I didn't care for. After everything was done and the family walked out, SuFuDu was outside the church. They played part of their show. Every one of them was crying. Aaron's drum was set up in the middle with a flag in the middle. I cried even harder when I saw that. The SDSU drum line, the Pride, played at the grave site.They were all crying as well. I don't think I'll be able to listen to a snare drum in the same way again. Chris spoke at both the service and the site. His biggest regret is that he wasn't there when it all happened. He said, "I'm sorry you had to die alone." Those words carried so much weight in them. I just wanted to run up and hug him.
One of the things I really need now is for everything to go back to normal. Thanks to all of my friends, this is starting to help but sometimes when I'm all by myself I can't hide from the pain. No matter how you look at things, Aaron's death was tragic. It is going to take some time for this to heal. What I really need is to be with the people who love me. Our little Vermillion family is helping. Hopefully I can get past this soon. Aaron was a great kid. He touched so many lives and will be missed very much. His life was cut way to short.
Rest in Peace Aaron, I miss you very much.
Aaron Hohwieler August 9,1990 to October 25, 2010.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
This blog is of no importance to anyone who follows it but I can't sleep so I'm going to write.
I was thinking tonight about how thankful I am to have Kevin. (This is why some of you can stop reading.) I have had such bad luck with men. My first kiss didn't happen until I was almost 16 and the next week the guy ignored me at school and then dated one of my best friends. He was later charged with sexual assault by one of my other friends. My first real boyfriend was a drunk college drop out who worked at Lewis full time and cheated on me. Another guy, who I wasn't dating, got me to kiss him and then got back together with his ex-girlfriend less than four days later. I'm the kind of person who puts my whole heart into everything so for these guys, and others who have not been mentioned, to screw me over I was hurt. At the end of last year I was ready to give up on men altogether because none of them seemed to be able to care about me. And then Kevin came along. He was nice and sweet. He cared and is still caring. We can be having the most random conversations and still be having fun. I love him so much and I wish I could show him how much he truly means to me. I can't imagine life without him:)
Well I guess that's it since I'm tired again.
Later
Ash
I was thinking tonight about how thankful I am to have Kevin. (This is why some of you can stop reading.) I have had such bad luck with men. My first kiss didn't happen until I was almost 16 and the next week the guy ignored me at school and then dated one of my best friends. He was later charged with sexual assault by one of my other friends. My first real boyfriend was a drunk college drop out who worked at Lewis full time and cheated on me. Another guy, who I wasn't dating, got me to kiss him and then got back together with his ex-girlfriend less than four days later. I'm the kind of person who puts my whole heart into everything so for these guys, and others who have not been mentioned, to screw me over I was hurt. At the end of last year I was ready to give up on men altogether because none of them seemed to be able to care about me. And then Kevin came along. He was nice and sweet. He cared and is still caring. We can be having the most random conversations and still be having fun. I love him so much and I wish I could show him how much he truly means to me. I can't imagine life without him:)
Well I guess that's it since I'm tired again.
Later
Ash
Friday, October 1, 2010
It's been awhile...
It has been a very long time since I've blogged. This summer I really used it to tell my friends whats on my mind. Now that I'm living in Vermillion, I can just tell them. This is what is happening so far.
I totally predicted the fact that my group of friends would need some transitional time for me and Kevin but I didn't think it would be that bad. The thing that pissed me off was that I felt as though everything I did was being looked at again. I spent so many years having to dress perfectly and say the right thing and be the perfect student and the best kid in sunday school and I hated every second of it. If I did anything wrong it was brought up in my dad's staff meeting for the week. I felt like Kevin and I couldn't do anything right. Thankfully I think we have gotten through the hard parts and I understand their side of the situation. (For those of you involved I'm sorry for the mess I caused.)
School is INSANE!!!!! I'm taking 18 credits plus three class for no credit. Plus lessons have studio classes added on so really when you add everything together I'm taking about 25 credits this semester. The one class I can't stand in Para. For this class I have to decide whether or not I really want to become a teacher by doing fluff work and 30 hours of observation time that we have to do on our own and be in class every friday at noon. (aka no lunch for me on mondays wednesdays and fridays because of foundations of american education, we'll get to my bitching about that class in a minute.) My teacher placed me in SIOUX FALLS. Freaking one hour away when I don't have time to get everything done for the stuff I'm doing in Vermillion. So the plan is that I'm going to take an incomplete in the class and do all of the observations over Christmas break. Merry Christmas to me. Foundations of American Education in my second worst class. To sum up what we have learned is being a teacher sucks because you have to deal with kids and you could get sued. TET is the only ed class that I kinda like. I say kinda because we are going through how to use a computer in teaching. So I go on facebook for an hour and then go see Kevin for breakfast.
I thought Theory was going to be my favorite class again but I was VERY wrong. We had our first test this past monday and I got the worst grade I have every gotten in my entire life. Less than 50% on something I consider myself good at. Wyatt and I would compete for the best grade in the class last year. I don't know what happened. I thought I was doing really well on the test but apparently I had everything wrong. Though I did get the hardest chord that we had to spell out right. Which makes absolutely no sense to me. After getting my test back on Wednesday I spent twenty minutes crying in Dr. Yarbrough's office and begging him for a second chance. He told me that I had to come in for an hour private tutoring class. Then he told the entire class today that we would have a make-up test next week. I almost started crying again I was so happy! Things are starting to look up for that class
Diction is by for the hardest class I have this semester. You have to find the correct pronunciation of words. We use IPA which is really cool but also very subjective because everyone pronounces words differently. I've studied more for this class than anything else in my life.
The main problem for me this year is my stress level. Thank God I have Kevin. He keeps everything in prospective for me. I love him so much!!! I don't know how I ever could have possibly live without him. Whenever I'm with him I feel relaxed. Like there isn't anything else I need to worry about or plan or write, I can just be his girlfriend. I have never felt this way about anyone. I just love him:)
and now I'm gushing sorry
That's about it for right now..
Later
I totally predicted the fact that my group of friends would need some transitional time for me and Kevin but I didn't think it would be that bad. The thing that pissed me off was that I felt as though everything I did was being looked at again. I spent so many years having to dress perfectly and say the right thing and be the perfect student and the best kid in sunday school and I hated every second of it. If I did anything wrong it was brought up in my dad's staff meeting for the week. I felt like Kevin and I couldn't do anything right. Thankfully I think we have gotten through the hard parts and I understand their side of the situation. (For those of you involved I'm sorry for the mess I caused.)
School is INSANE!!!!! I'm taking 18 credits plus three class for no credit. Plus lessons have studio classes added on so really when you add everything together I'm taking about 25 credits this semester. The one class I can't stand in Para. For this class I have to decide whether or not I really want to become a teacher by doing fluff work and 30 hours of observation time that we have to do on our own and be in class every friday at noon. (aka no lunch for me on mondays wednesdays and fridays because of foundations of american education, we'll get to my bitching about that class in a minute.) My teacher placed me in SIOUX FALLS. Freaking one hour away when I don't have time to get everything done for the stuff I'm doing in Vermillion. So the plan is that I'm going to take an incomplete in the class and do all of the observations over Christmas break. Merry Christmas to me. Foundations of American Education in my second worst class. To sum up what we have learned is being a teacher sucks because you have to deal with kids and you could get sued. TET is the only ed class that I kinda like. I say kinda because we are going through how to use a computer in teaching. So I go on facebook for an hour and then go see Kevin for breakfast.
I thought Theory was going to be my favorite class again but I was VERY wrong. We had our first test this past monday and I got the worst grade I have every gotten in my entire life. Less than 50% on something I consider myself good at. Wyatt and I would compete for the best grade in the class last year. I don't know what happened. I thought I was doing really well on the test but apparently I had everything wrong. Though I did get the hardest chord that we had to spell out right. Which makes absolutely no sense to me. After getting my test back on Wednesday I spent twenty minutes crying in Dr. Yarbrough's office and begging him for a second chance. He told me that I had to come in for an hour private tutoring class. Then he told the entire class today that we would have a make-up test next week. I almost started crying again I was so happy! Things are starting to look up for that class
Diction is by for the hardest class I have this semester. You have to find the correct pronunciation of words. We use IPA which is really cool but also very subjective because everyone pronounces words differently. I've studied more for this class than anything else in my life.
The main problem for me this year is my stress level. Thank God I have Kevin. He keeps everything in prospective for me. I love him so much!!! I don't know how I ever could have possibly live without him. Whenever I'm with him I feel relaxed. Like there isn't anything else I need to worry about or plan or write, I can just be his girlfriend. I have never felt this way about anyone. I just love him:)
and now I'm gushing sorry
That's about it for right now..
Later
Thursday, August 19, 2010
My little weakness
For some odd reason I have become addicted to some stupid TV shows this summer. Here are the shows that I can't wait to see every week
Teen Mom - which is actually a really good show
Jersey Shore
Kourtney and Khloe Take Miami
Keeping up with the Kardashians
The Hard Times of RJ Berger
America's Next Top Model
Top Chef
My Life on the D-List
Ok Top Chef is a really good show but the one I'm most surprised about is the Jersey Shore. This show is absolutely ridiculous but for some odd reason I find myself rushing home to watch the rerun after work on Thursdays. I think I have a problem. But this could also be the result of my boredom without my usual Glee and Supernatural. Also 10 Things I Hate About You has disappeared for the summer and the stupid Secret Life of the American Teenager has taken it's place. I will sometimes click past that show hoping for it to turn into something else. Its horrible! The story line has turned into more of a soap opera than anything else.
I think I have a problem...
I need to be around people again otherwise I'm going to go crazy!!!
Help!
Ash
Teen Mom - which is actually a really good show
Jersey Shore
Kourtney and Khloe Take Miami
Keeping up with the Kardashians
The Hard Times of RJ Berger
America's Next Top Model
Top Chef
My Life on the D-List
Ok Top Chef is a really good show but the one I'm most surprised about is the Jersey Shore. This show is absolutely ridiculous but for some odd reason I find myself rushing home to watch the rerun after work on Thursdays. I think I have a problem. But this could also be the result of my boredom without my usual Glee and Supernatural. Also 10 Things I Hate About You has disappeared for the summer and the stupid Secret Life of the American Teenager has taken it's place. I will sometimes click past that show hoping for it to turn into something else. Its horrible! The story line has turned into more of a soap opera than anything else.
I think I have a problem...
I need to be around people again otherwise I'm going to go crazy!!!
Help!
Ash
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
randomness
I haven't blogged for a while so i think I'll just write down what I've been thinking about.
btw i accidentally deleted my last post...but that's ok because it was just me ranting about a girl at work.
who pissed me off again on Monday... she called me while I had a line of at least five people (she wasn't working that day) to tell me that her father was dropping off a check and I was supposed to give it to whoever came in asking for it. I was very close to ripping it up. I told my boss who also thought it was very weird that she would have them come to where she works. I also talked to my parents about this and they agreed with me that her behavior is very unprofessional.
Sorry I didn't mean to start venting again.
Ok happier subjects. I got to see Kevin, Kayla, and Chris yesterday which made me very happy. Especially my alone time with Kevin;) We all went and saw The Other Guys. I don't think I've ever laughed that hard during a movie! I actually want to see it again. Which is saying something because the last movie I saw, Dinner For Schmucks, was not very good. I think the movie industry is running out of ideas. I think there will be some major issues once the Harry Potter and Twilight saga movies are over. There aren't many story lines left! I think they should defiantly contact Brianna Keener for some story ideas. Either that or make one of her books into a movie:)
I can't wait for school to start! I loved this summer but I'm ready to get back to school. Plus I'm really excited to start my new job. I'm really weird like that. I like working, even though I complain about it a lot. It gives me something to do. Don't get me wrong I love hanging out with friends but when I'm working I'm making money and I'm helping people. That's one of the thing I love about Lewis. I feel like I'm helping people. It gives me a little extra something when I can get people through my line with exactly what they want/need as fast as I can. I actually had one guy about a week ago look at me after I gave him his change who said wow that was quick. Another part I love is counting drawers. Its so much fun when you get everything right. I have to count two drawers in c.s. yes I'm a dork I like to count money.
Ten more days until I get to see Kevin whenever I want:) Moving is going to be sweet because I'm pretty sure my whole family will be helping. I asked my brother and sister if they wanted to see my new place and both of them said yes. This means they will get to meet Laura and possibly Chris and Bri (I don't expect you guys to be there but if you happen to be in the neighborhood:)...). They have already meet Kayla so she doesn't really count lol. I'm also really excited to meet my new roommates, Liz and Jess. They seem like really nice people.
One things for sure, this year is going to be very interesting.
signing off
Ash
btw i accidentally deleted my last post...but that's ok because it was just me ranting about a girl at work.
who pissed me off again on Monday... she called me while I had a line of at least five people (she wasn't working that day) to tell me that her father was dropping off a check and I was supposed to give it to whoever came in asking for it. I was very close to ripping it up. I told my boss who also thought it was very weird that she would have them come to where she works. I also talked to my parents about this and they agreed with me that her behavior is very unprofessional.
Sorry I didn't mean to start venting again.
Ok happier subjects. I got to see Kevin, Kayla, and Chris yesterday which made me very happy. Especially my alone time with Kevin;) We all went and saw The Other Guys. I don't think I've ever laughed that hard during a movie! I actually want to see it again. Which is saying something because the last movie I saw, Dinner For Schmucks, was not very good. I think the movie industry is running out of ideas. I think there will be some major issues once the Harry Potter and Twilight saga movies are over. There aren't many story lines left! I think they should defiantly contact Brianna Keener for some story ideas. Either that or make one of her books into a movie:)
I can't wait for school to start! I loved this summer but I'm ready to get back to school. Plus I'm really excited to start my new job. I'm really weird like that. I like working, even though I complain about it a lot. It gives me something to do. Don't get me wrong I love hanging out with friends but when I'm working I'm making money and I'm helping people. That's one of the thing I love about Lewis. I feel like I'm helping people. It gives me a little extra something when I can get people through my line with exactly what they want/need as fast as I can. I actually had one guy about a week ago look at me after I gave him his change who said wow that was quick. Another part I love is counting drawers. Its so much fun when you get everything right. I have to count two drawers in c.s. yes I'm a dork I like to count money.
Ten more days until I get to see Kevin whenever I want:) Moving is going to be sweet because I'm pretty sure my whole family will be helping. I asked my brother and sister if they wanted to see my new place and both of them said yes. This means they will get to meet Laura and possibly Chris and Bri (I don't expect you guys to be there but if you happen to be in the neighborhood:)...). They have already meet Kayla so she doesn't really count lol. I'm also really excited to meet my new roommates, Liz and Jess. They seem like really nice people.
One things for sure, this year is going to be very interesting.
signing off
Ash
Saturday, August 7, 2010
The NewDay Creed
It's not about me.
I give myself freely and totally to God.
That I may be used for the building of God's kingdom,
For the care of God's world.
To love God's Children,
All of God's Children.
-Even those who are not like me
-Even those who do not like me
That God's kingdom might become real
And that I might be blessed
And be made complete.
My dad wrote this creed. It has been the basic belief statement for my church NewDay. We have been up and running for just over five years now. I try to live my life by this creed... but sometimes I epically fail lol. This creed reminds me that even on the crappiest days I have had worse, and just because I am having a bad day, doesn't mean I have to make someone else's worse.
FUMC (First United Methodist Church) in Sioux falls used to be my second home. The only place I hadn't been in that church was the roof. I grew up going to that church ever Wednesday and Sunday for 12 years. Can you imagine walking into a church and not knowing who you can trust? If I said anything to the wrong person they could use that against my dad. That's why I like the part about people who don't like you in the creed.
As I mentioned before we started NewDay about five years ago. Even after all this time, FUMC still blames my dad for all of their problems. They didn't meet their budget for this year and apparently it's our fault. Honestly they have the guy who gave all that money to Sioux Valley and made them change their name to Sandford going to their church. They should just have him bail them out. Anyway, during the first year of NewDay they would send people to see how many people where coming to our church. I would watch these people, people who had been in my life since I was three, drive into the parking lot of the park we where having church at and then drive out supposedly to FUMC. I went back to a youth meeting one time. Our youth group activity was over and some of my friends wanted to go checkout what FUMC was doing. So we went to their youth group. The leader had us go around the room and talk about the new church and why we had left. I was insulted. It was kinda obvious that she just wanted information that she could present at the next staff meeting. Sadly, Gwen was treated the same way as my dad. She later apologized to my family and is now living in Texas.
My goal in life is to follow this creed. Which means putting others first and not freaking out about unimportant things. Getting my priorities straight has taken a little longer than I thought but I think I'm back on track :)
I give myself freely and totally to God.
That I may be used for the building of God's kingdom,
For the care of God's world.
To love God's Children,
All of God's Children.
-Even those who are not like me
-Even those who do not like me
That God's kingdom might become real
And that I might be blessed
And be made complete.
My dad wrote this creed. It has been the basic belief statement for my church NewDay. We have been up and running for just over five years now. I try to live my life by this creed... but sometimes I epically fail lol. This creed reminds me that even on the crappiest days I have had worse, and just because I am having a bad day, doesn't mean I have to make someone else's worse.
FUMC (First United Methodist Church) in Sioux falls used to be my second home. The only place I hadn't been in that church was the roof. I grew up going to that church ever Wednesday and Sunday for 12 years. Can you imagine walking into a church and not knowing who you can trust? If I said anything to the wrong person they could use that against my dad. That's why I like the part about people who don't like you in the creed.
As I mentioned before we started NewDay about five years ago. Even after all this time, FUMC still blames my dad for all of their problems. They didn't meet their budget for this year and apparently it's our fault. Honestly they have the guy who gave all that money to Sioux Valley and made them change their name to Sandford going to their church. They should just have him bail them out. Anyway, during the first year of NewDay they would send people to see how many people where coming to our church. I would watch these people, people who had been in my life since I was three, drive into the parking lot of the park we where having church at and then drive out supposedly to FUMC. I went back to a youth meeting one time. Our youth group activity was over and some of my friends wanted to go checkout what FUMC was doing. So we went to their youth group. The leader had us go around the room and talk about the new church and why we had left. I was insulted. It was kinda obvious that she just wanted information that she could present at the next staff meeting. Sadly, Gwen was treated the same way as my dad. She later apologized to my family and is now living in Texas.
My goal in life is to follow this creed. Which means putting others first and not freaking out about unimportant things. Getting my priorities straight has taken a little longer than I thought but I think I'm back on track :)
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