unhappy employee

I have been working at Lewis Drug in Sioux Falls for almost three years. Some people don't really understand why this is a big deal, but to me, I feel like this should be celebrated. Some people don't even make it six months at Lewis. Example: I met the two new people at Thanksgiving time and by the time I came back for Christmas they were gone. Since I've been working there all of my mangagers have been replaced. So in most cases I not only know more than the managers I have to teach them how to do things.

Today I found out that cooperate is cutting part-timer's hours. I was "given" three days of work of the next week. Thankfully one of my co-workers realizes that Lewis goes on these time limit kicks and she gave me another day, but I think I deserve better than this. It is not fair to me since I'm only back for one ,more week. Plus, I have a running bet with one of my other coworkers on how many times I will be called in this week. The count is already up to one but I WILL be in White that day so I had to refuse. It always makes me made when they decide to cut the part-timers. During the summer, I work just as much, if not more, as the full time people. I have also taken on shifts when they need help which result in 10 to 14 hour days for me. I don't even get holiday pay.

To many, this is blog is just a bunch of whining, and really it is, but I feel so attached to this company that it feels like a slap in the face to me. Lewis gave me a job when I really needed it. My job at CJ Callaways was not in a very healthy environment. I did many illegal things there. Such as using a knife and working past seven before I was sixteen, using the mixing equipment before I was eighteen, and there was an problem with the staff. One day, after the police first visited us, we no longer had any dishwashers. (They were all illegal immigrants.) And there was the incident when I was sexually assaulted by one of the other employees, but that really wasn't that big of a deal. I never told anyone about that part, not even my parents. (The guy was like a foot shorter than me too and it didn't happen again.) After I wasn't scheduled for over a month I decided it was time to quit. Of course my parents wouldn't let me quit without another job so my dad pulled some strings with a guy from our church and he got me an interview with the head manager at Lewis. After landing the job, even though it paid less, the first thing I did was quit CJ"s.

I worked hard for Lewis right from the beginning. I slowly learning all of the departments. I was the youngest person to ever be trained in Customer Service. And now they let me come back and work when I can. So I should be grateful that they even gave me any hours over Christmas but I can't help feeling that I've worked very hard to get where I am.

So now I kinda don't want to go back. With all the crap that they have put me through in the past year I really don't want to be there anymore. Every time I walk into that place I feel this wait on my shoulders. It's almost like an obligation to still be at Lewis. It could also be that I've changed a lot in the last three years. But of course I can't quit because I have way to much experience there and they do give me great hours over the summer. That and I should be getting a raise in the next week.

Don't get me wrong, there are some good things about working at Lewis. I've learned a lot and I even get a discount. I enjoy working with (most of) my coworkers and the customers aren't too bad (when they get what they want). I'm pretty good at my job.

In other news that kinda relates to Lewis. I had to work today so now Kevin is stuck in Vermillion and I'm stuck in Sioux Falls. We were going to drive to White tonight but now that the interstate is closed there is no chance of getting there until tomorrow. I can't help but feel guilty since the only reason Kev isn't in White right now is because I worked so late. I feel terrible. Kevin told me not to worry but I still can't help but feel bad. I feel a little better after calling him. I just can't wait to see Kevin's family. I know it's weird for the girlfriend to want to see the boyfriends family but they are so much fun to be around. Plus they are way different from my family. As Kevin pointed out after our trip to the Hills, my family likes to argue...a lot. We don't really spend time together, we just spend time in the same house. We just happen to be around each other. Now don't get me wrong, I love my family, but things are just different in White.

I think this is a long enough blog
later
Ash

grrrrrr....

Today was a day that just pissed me off. I have never wanted to physically hurt someone outside of my family before but I seriously considered slapping a woman upside the head.

It all started Friday night when I was on facebook. I got a chat message from one of my bosses informing that I was scheduled for 10:00 am on Sunday. I had already been to Lewis that week and one of my other bosses had told me that I wasn't on the schedule. I was mad cause I wanted to spend more time with Kevin before I had to start working again. But Sunday morning I got up at 7:25 to drive back to Sioux Falls. Leaving Kevin and friends behind. When I got home, I went looking for my Lewis Uniform. I look for almost a half hour before I finally called my dad. He told me that if I couldn't find it just take Taryn or Ben's. Since Taryn's room looked like something had exploded in there I took Ben's shirt. I was thinking on the way to work what if my boss was wrong and I don't have to work today? Then I could go home and sleep. When I got to work I was greeted with the news that one of my coworkers was sick and they couldn't find anyone to work for her. That's when I got the look. Every time one of my superiors needs something from me they all get the same hopeful look on their face and then turn to me and say we could really use the help... And like the idiot I am I said yes. SO I worked from 10am to 10pm today...and Tuesday.

And it gets better. I had probably the worst customer ever today. This person called ahead saying that she didn't have her receipt and wanted to return something. My manager for the night said yes but he would have to return it to a gift card. She came in after Customer Service had closed for the day so I had to do the return. It was one of those Vick's humidifiers. I needed the manager keys to do this so I called him up to checkstands. Once he got up there and I started the paperwork, Dav opened the box to discover that it had been used! There was hair all over it. He even asked her if she had used it. This woman said yes and it gave her walking pneumonia so that's why she was returning it. I finished the paper work and Dav told me to make it as damaged. Then I gave her the gift card which had almost $25.00 on it. She asked me where the pop was and I told her about two rows down on the left. She came back with a 12pack of Mountain dew which I scanned and was reaching for the gift card that I had just giving her when she said, "oh yeah I need three packs of Marlboro 72 menthol and one pack of Marlboro reds." I almost flipped shit!!!!!! This woman just told me that one of our products had given her pneumonia and then was buying cigarettes!! I was SO PISSED!!!!!!!! I thought about refusing but then I decided to be professional and try to get her out of there as soon as possible. I wanted to not only slap her but punch her in the face. After I looked at her paper work again I saw her name, Maria Berry. Then I looked at the reminders around my register to discover a note saying not to return anything to Maria Berry, especially OTC. Now I'm not only pissed I'm furious!!! and a little disappointed in myself for not catching it.

So after that I had three hours to stand at my register and think about how stupid I am.
Now I'm tired and pissed and I don't want to be here. I would like to escape to Vermillion.
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Sorry I'm being annoying.
I must be crabby
And you all probably didn't want to read all of this......

So to sum things up, if you ever meet a Maria Berry from Sioux Falls and she is an older woman who kinda smells, please punch her for me.

well, back to work tomorrow. At least I have Wednesday off.
hopefully by then I wont be so crabby
sorry for putting my readers through this.

On another annoying note, I found my shirt...my sister stole it. I'm not happy with her. She has dropped from favorite sister to least favorite sister, and I only have one sister. I think she bought me something as a piece offering. I even told my dad this morning I bet she stole it. I think she should be grounded and I know this seems like a harsh punishment but she has been doing this since we were little. She will steal my stuff and then when I need it I can't use it. Examples: my red shorts for soccer, my choir shirt, my pants, my underwear, my SOCKS!!!! and I know this my look selfish but it gets really old after a while. My mom is starting get a idea of what I've gone through since Taryn started stealing her stuff after I moved out. I hope she realizes that next year she will be all on her own and her roommate will not take her shit. I really hope she starts understanding soon, especially if she decides to come to USD next year and I'm still not there to bail her out....

Ok enough of my bitching for one night
later
Ash

mushy

so the end of the semester is quickly approaching. but that is not what i want to talk about.

Today is Kevin and my 6 month anniversary. It truly is a mile stone for us. I have never had a relationship that has lasted this long. Normally I would be so bored by this point, or not in love with the person anymore. But I still want to see Kevin. I am so exited to come home to just be with him. He is so funny and smart. He makes me smile when we are together.
I was thinking back to our first date this summer. A lot as changed since then! We started dating when I am the most relaxed. Yes I work a lot but it's not the same as during the school year. When I'm at school, I am running around trying to get so much stuff done and getting ready for juries that I barely have time to think. I say, if he made it through a semester with me, and still likes me, than he must be a keeper. We have made it through the transitional period, but now I'm a little worried since I wont get to see him that often over break.

I never thought I would be so attached to someone that I don't want to go a day without them. I am a very independent person. I could go days without seeing anyone and be totally fine. In fact, during the summer that's what I tend to do. If it hadn't been for Kevin, I probably would not have come down to Vermillion at all this past summer and every time I hung out with other friends it was because they texted me. I was like this a lot in high school. My mom thinks I'm ashamed of her and that's why I never invite people over. Honestly, I'm just fine on my own. But now that I have Kevin, I don't have to be. I love spending time with him.

Kevin I LLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't wait for you to meet the rest of my family;)
time for rehearsal...
later